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Rayanne Kenny

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 09:48:37 GMT

Dear Rayanne Kenny.

Haha you loser, are you still Googling your name? :P

The real blog is here Kenny, www.edwina.vox.com

Rayanne Kenny aka
- Lepidus
- Neville Longbottom
- Rayth Kenwater
- Dopey (the mentally stunted dwarf who is also mute with the verbal incapacity to speak)

LOVE YOU KENNY

edwina.vox.com edwina.vox.com edwina.vox.com edwina.vox.com

It just occured to me

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 12:40:20 GMT

that i should do the liberty to my loyal blog readers (in the event that there is any) to notify them i actually have a new blog.

well well well here it is.

my bad it wasnt there.

here, here, no there it is !

http://edwina.vox.com

Read responsibly : p Know your limitations!

Much Love.

The lovely worldwideweb.

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 22:29:11 GMT

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

I found this off this lovely girl who decided to comment me's page. <-- The grammar here is horrific. Yawn.

skip this too.

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 15:00:30 GMT

In the list of books below, bold the ones you’ve read, italicize the ones you want to read, ~~cross out~~ the ones you won’t touch with a ten-foot pole, put a cross (+) in front of the ones on your book shelf, and asterisk (*) the ones you’ve never heard of.

~~1. The Da Vinci Code (Dan Brown)~~
2. + Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen)
3. To Kill A Mockingbird (Harper Lee)
4. Gone With the Wind (Margaret Mitchell)
5. The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King (Tolkien)
6. The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring (Tolkien)
7. The Lord of the Rings: (Tolkien)
8. Anne of Green Gables (L. M. Montgomery)
9. *Outlander (Diana Gabaldon)
10. *A Fine Balance (Rohinton Mistry)
11. +Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Rowling)
~~12. Angels and Demons (Dan Brown)~~
13. +Harry Potter and the Order of the (Rowling)
14. *A Prayer for Owen Meany (John Irving)
15. +Memoirs of a Geisha (Arthur Golden)
16. +Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone (Rowling)
17. *Fall on Your Knees (Ann-Marie MacDonald)
~~18. *The Stand (Stephen King)~~
19. +Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Rowling)
20. *Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte)
21. The Hobbit (Tolkien)
22. *The Catcher in the (J. D. Salinger)
23. +Little Women (Louisa May Alcott)
24. The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold)
25. *Life of Pi (Yann Martel)
~~26. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams)~~
27. * (Emily Bronte)
28. The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe (C. S. Lewis)
29. *East of Eden (John Steinbeck)
~~30. *Tuesdays with Morrie (Mitch Albom)~~
31. *Dune (Frank Herbert)
32. The Notebook (Nicholas Sparks)
33. *Atlas Shrugged (Ayn Rand)
34.*1984 (Orwell)
35. *The Mists of Avalon (Marion Zimmer Bradley)
36. *The Pillars of the Earth (Ken Follett)
37. The Power of One (Bryce Courtenay)
38. *I Know This Much is True (Wally Lamb)
39. *The Red Tent (Anita Diamant)
40. The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
41. *The Clan of the Cave Bear (Jean M. Auel)
42. The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
43. Confessions of a Shopaholic (Sophie Kinsella)
~~44. *The Five People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)~~
45. Bible
46. *Anna Karenina (Tolstoy)
47. The Count of Monte Cristo (Alexandre Dumas)
48. * Angela’s Ashes (Frank McCourt)
49. The Grapes of Wrath (John Steinbeck)
50. *She’s Come Undone (Wally Lamb)
51. *The Poisonwood Bible (Barbara Kingsolver)
~~52. A Tale of Two Cities (Dickens)~~
53. *Ender’s Game (Orson Scott Card)
54. Great Expectations (Dickens)
55. The Great Gatsby (Fitzgerald)
56. *The Stone Angel (Margaret Laurence)
57. +Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (Rowling)
58. *The Thorn Birds (Colleen McCullough)
59. +The Handmaid’s Tale (Margaret Atwood)
60. The Time Traveler’s Wife (Audrew Niffenegger)
61. Crime and Punishment (Fyodor Dostoyevsky)
62. *The Fountainhead (Ayn Rand)
63. War and Peace (Tolstoy)
64. Interview with the Vampire (Anne Rice)
65. *Fifth Business (Robertson Davis)
66. *One Hundred Years Of Solitude (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
~~67. The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants (Ann Brashares)~~
68. *Catch-22 (Joseph Heller)
69. Les Miserables (Hugo)
70. *The Little Prince (Antoine de Saint-Exupery)
~~71. Bridget Jones’ Diary (Fielding)~~
72.* Love in the Time of Cholera (Marquez)
73. *Shogun (James Clavell)
74. The English Patient (Michael Ondaatje)
~~75. The (Frances Hodgson Burnett)~~
76. *The Summer Tree (Guy Gavriel Kay)
77.* A Tree Grows in (Betty Smith)
78. *The World According To Garp (John Irving)
79. *The Diviners (Margaret Laurence)
80. ’s Web (E.B. White)
81. *Not Wanted On the Voyage (Timothy Findley)
82. Of Mice And Men (Steinbeck)
83. *Rebecca (Daphne DuMaurier)
84. *Wizard’s First Rule (Terry Goodkind)
85. +Emma (Jane Austen)
~~86. Watership Down (Richard Adams)~~
87. Brave New World (Aldous Huxley)
88. The Stone Diaries (Carol Shields)
89. *Blindness (Jose Saramago)
90. *Kane and Abel (Jeffrey Archer)
91. *In The Skin Of A Lion (Ondaatje)
92. Lord of the Flies (Golding)
93. *The Good Earth (Pearl S. Buck)
94. *The Secret Life of Bees (Sue Monk Kidd)
95. The Bourne Identity (Robert Ludlum)
96. The Outsiders (S. E. Hinton)
97. *White Oleander (Janet Fitch)
98. *A Woman of Substance (Barbara Taylor Bradford)
99. *The Celestine Prophecy (James Redfield)
100. *Ulysses (James Joyce)

please skip this.

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 14:44:40 GMT

if you care skip this blog entry to the next.

if you don't, leave. im just doing a quiz right now to take my mind off things.

1. Can you cook?
with the aid of a microwave, yes.

2. What was your dream growing up?
i wanted to be miss hong kong and then an air hostess both aspirations passed as my mum informed me i didnt have the physical requirements to take up such occupations. what? she said i was ugly. i then wanted to be a hair dresser and then my mother discouraged me due to lack of a decent wage. i then wanted to be a writer but i realised in comparison to other people i write like shit. and then i wanted to be an ist person because i dearly loved my computer until i realised i hated IPT . now ? i want to be an accountant.

3. What talent do you wish you had?
to live giving the impression im perfect.

4. Favorite place?
the contemporary art museum

5. Favorite musical artist (of the moment)?
oh, paramore? 3o seconds to mars? i dont know.

6. The last book you read?
i finally finally finished reading where the truth lies. and.. i tried reading the other book i borrowed from strathfield library and i gave up, subsequently im reading another overdue book that amy the genius recommended to me.

7. What zodiac sign are you?
cancerous tumor.

8. Any Tattoos and / or Piercings?
ears? i want seconds.

9. Worst Habit?
i'm a dishonest, self conscious, backstabbing, bitching slut. true story.

10. What is your favourite sport?
wrestling. watching i.e.

11. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
i havent been optimistic since i cant even remember.

12. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with george w. bush?
pretend i don't know him.

13. Best thing to ever happen to you?
i went to the contemporary art museum with two of my bestfriends.

14. Tell me one weird fact about you:
i am an unrequited love expert.

15. Do you have any pets?
indisposed goldfish and a cat.

16. Do you speak another language?
im learning japanese for the hsc, i can speak cantonese&english. cantonese is such a funny word.

17. What time & day is it where you are now?
it's march 24th , 2:44 am.

18. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
impartial.

19. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
my sensitivity.

20. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
depends on who you are and what you're doing.

21. What colour eyes do you have?
the ever so original and versatile brown

22. Ever been arrested?
they cant touch this *der der der der_

23. italian or chinese?
where do my loyalties lie? with the chinese takeaway shop of course.

24. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
1oooo isnt much. id put some in the bank, some in my wallet and some to a thirdworld (developing) children's fund.

25. What is your favorite work of art (at the moment)?
umm.. the media one in the exhibition and the nsw contemproary art museum. you walk into a room of mirrors like its walled with mirrors and in the middle of a wall is a tv and its a video of the room and 30 seconds later you see people walk into the room and what's scary is , is that you realise it's you. the video broadcasts laggy live surveilance and it's quite frightening.

26. how do you take your coffee or tea?
i dont.

27. Do you believe in ghosts?
yes

28. Favourite thing to do in your spare time?
waste it, or read or deafen myself with the sweet sounds of an ipod.

29. Do you swear a lot?
maybe.

30. Biggest pet peeve?
insufferable assholes.

31. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
heartbroken.

romanticism is a fuckup.

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 13:11:46 GMT

so.

it cuts.

during those heart-tugging, tear-jerking romantic films, i couldnt empathise with any concepts in the film. let's say pure cut, heartbreak's shoes have been filled nice and cosily.

oh wait so wtf is happening edwina?

remember how i said ill finally get over the guy ive been pining over if he finds himself a girl ? well here's my cue.

ive just come across the conclusion that this is all myspace's fault. typical me to seek out an alternative to divert all blame anywhere but upon myself.

if i didnt use myspace, i wouldnt stumble upon the asshole's page. now why am i calling him an asshole? really the pretty boy didnt do jackshit, just lived his life with an extra friend on his myspace list.

so, do i still like him? of course i do, feelings can't be discarded but they can change. i not only like him now, i hate him with a burning passion. cliche i know. but, if he ever mentions anything to me i will personally walk off on him.

i suppose that's the way the cookie crumbles. is this because i indulge in cookies with 40% chocolate. ?! fuck.

this is probably the worst year of my life so far.

okay. i dont know, my head hurts, my leg is throbbing and my stomach seems unstable.

i wonder when things will start looking up. ha.

when rayanne "started" something.

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 11:13:29 GMT

fuck i failed a maths test. thats so bad.

okay the best part of my day today was when rayanne "started" something.

so it was after lunch and i was feeling prit-tty shit about failing my maths test and everyone knows it, your mum would know it because gosh does word travel fast. anyways im sitting there and rayanne was apparently complaining to everyone about how she did pretty crap. this slightly annoyed me and so i told amy that rayanne should start taking things in her stride like an asian does and hten let their temper blow up on some unknowing punchdoll. well i did that today, on rayanne.

im sitting there you know minding my sweet business, when rayanne the man starts flashing her shiny book in my eyes. i mean come on! i was NOT in a good mood, how often does an asian fail her maths test, god fucking it was a 2u maths test too and then rayanne starts flashing her shiny book in my eye trying to lower my 2o2o vision . so i get pissed and im like what the fuck? so i get up and backhanded her face. shes like WOOOOAH sohckced and then i turn around to sit back down and the chicken shit takes the opportunity to slap me on the back. now i get fucked off and im like what the fuck? so i stand up and she runs away and i calmly pursue in at a walking pace she then throws a popper at me. this pisses me off because that's also LITTERING. so

E : PICK THAT UP
R : it's not mine
E : I DONT GIVE A FUCK PICK IT UP
R : why dont you pick it up?
E : PICK IT UP YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.

note : yes it does have to be at such a degree of profanity to contain how pissed of it.

R : okay okay, just move back and ill pick it up . (note : the popper was at my foot, and she was scared shitless i would knee her in the head , which i so wish i could do)
E : WHAT?
R : stand back *giggles_
E : HURRY THE FUCK UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT.

so she does , she scoops and scrambles away.

i dont know there was then this calm moment but then something happened and i end up pelting my pencil case which by the way had my mobile phone inside and threw it at her in the face. she get's pissed and i dont know retaliates somehow so then. i slap the crap out of her and then i pushed her, you know the hardcore gangster way that ive been doing alot lately, that way. anyways she falls back onto the seat and she goes a little cuckoo and she goes GOD ALL I DID WAS SHINE A (blinding) LIGHT IN YOUR EYE. and she storms away. i felt pretty invigorated after all that to be honest. whoever said violence is not the answer, is wrong. anyways ..

before rayanne indignantly storms off she goes "i could hurt you ed but i choose not to" ahah her confidence pissed the shit out of me and i felt like being cruel and im like "RAYANNE YOU REACH MY KNEECAPS HURT ME? BRING IT ON"

oh awesome news, whilst it was all happening everyone was like woo ed.

that was all. just had to share it, big milestone in life. tick on my checklist .

fricking.

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 12:21:05 GMT

AH HA! AH HA! keep your hands off my girl, keep your hands off my girl .

LOL, i abhor good charlotte but the song sticks like a .. wart to your foot when you walk footnaked on the tiles. Strange analogy but it works no?

Im kind of in a content neutral state, amanda calls it the calm before the fuck up. okay she never said fuck up i merely used etymology =p i suppose shes right, i wasnt usually that giddy in the morning. weird, im more energetic when i get less sleep. for example one night i slept at 1am and i woke up feeling absolutely awful the next i sleep at 2am and i feel like i am today a little restless.

im really nervous for my brother, the threats my mum give him if he doesnt make it to selective dotn sound very empty and the fact that his english is so weak makes my doubt of him making it in even higher.

heck no. stupid ignorant parents. yes baaaad experience .

anyways *grumbles in indignation_

my eyes are strained now like it's hard to move it around. fine_

anyways got to school and it was barricaded, they're finally building that elevator they proposed TWO YEARS AGO for the disabled girl that was supposed to attend our school TWO YEARS AGO. it's like why build a fish pond when theres no fish?! i mean until there are fish flopping on the floor i think we should focus our monetary supply on something more urgent like say i dont know.. something more urgent. sure sure we should be prepared and all, but for what something that never happens? What would happen if no one disabled EVER comes.

english, weird othello rap =) miss thinks im reserved >_____>"

recess . had a popper.

japanese . did some dialogue work.

chem . some people did their speech. some of the speeches are REALLY good. - -"

it's almost over now.

anyways durnig lunch i found it was rams birthday so i went over to celebrate and took up the job of group photographer whilst snitching some of their doritos ^^

economics was okay, nothing new thankfully.

walked with jessica to the station in a comfortable half silence (half because of the times she tried starting a conversations and i quashed her hopes by giving her closed end replies. =p

went to the 'bathroom' (howdy) before catching the train which we just missed =) so we waited another 13 minutes for a train.

called katrine at homebush to find out she wasnt coming. - -" so then i messaged kylie to see if she was wanted to come only to find out she was at pancakes on the rocks. fine. so i decided that a solitary study session was exactly what i needed. i suceeded until i found out that geoffrey was amidst the proximity and then i wasted 20 minutes watching him bebo - -" *sigh_

made kathleen's friend shin take care of my library card as geoffrey and i went to go buy something to eat.

came back and decided to read a rolling stone magazine within the shin/barom area because i didnt have anything better to do.

anyways after a while geoffrey told me we had 10 minutes until and ci was going psycho about it.

anyways :)

made it in time >D

i failed my english test - -" but then i dont feel entirely too bad for it because i know that if i properly applied myself i wouldve aced it X)

the mosquitoes at mono are crazy. and im worried about everyone i dont think their family feeds them. = ="

oh well. ! =)P

had mongolian lamb today X)

sleepy ! off to bed =)

whatever you want dah-ling.

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 09:26:13 GMT

okay. i had another one of those days again. you know, those days? no, you probably wouldnt. what am i thinking? it's not like you would know what it was to ignorantly sleep at 2am and then wake up at 7:25am. sure you could empathise with me when i struggle to stay awake in japanese, questioning myself on my presence there.

to the strangers, to the intimate, to the frequents. i don't know, i can't prescribe an epithet for these kind of days. the ones where i am mentally and physically exhausted. the days when i want to fall asleep and wake up to the good days. what good days? define good days.

gou-d / dae-z . the days in which one would refer to in the future as a day worth noting with a smile.

i have an english essay im supposed to be doing; but instead here i am writing my own death certificate on my blog, which im certain no one reads.

beauty queen of only 18.

anyways, okay. the responsibility sinks my shoulders in a way im incapable to continue my blog.

ily for reading. unless you're a certain someone then. i don't know go away? : )

should i really still be blogging ? oh well. i need something to read over when i grow older.

my my my

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 09:15:31 GMT

i'm the centre of this enigmatic situation right now. it's expected, prescribed in fact. every teenager undergoes extreme confusion, no?

so let's dot point it all.

my love life is currently swimming with maggots.
my 'close friend' isnt really that close after all.
my deep analytical skills revealed to me much to my unliking that my other close friend is such a conniving bitch. every move comes with an under motive. as if you do the things you do for those reasons.
my relationship between my parents and i has somewhat become professional where im just the employee who works at their chinese take away shop.
my sandwiches.. are just two pieces of bread with the crust cut off.. literally. wheres the goddamn filling?!
my faith in love is "abstract" as in not in the figurative sense but no. my faith in love is non-existent.
my toolbar isnt flashing.
my life starts to fall down again when my attention levels rise. coincidence i think not? i think it's all co-ordinated, i start feeling more attentive when im depressed hence leading to a speedy physical/mental decrease.
my head hurts now.
my list all starts with my and im starting to run out of mys.
my friend has interest periods in guys.
my faith in the power of friendship isnt very high either.
my english test was crap, the question with most marks was not attended to. note : that's BAD.
my list is starting to get tedious and probably tautological.

my my my thats my list.